Disappointment after disappointment. Rationally I know I need to get over this and i know that eventually everything will pass, but i really do not enjoy my time at work.
The only thing I’m looking forward is my trip in November, that’s the only thing that keeps me going for now. I don’t want to collapse but I don’t know how long I could sustain with the hope I’m holding on right now. Constantly telling myself/chanting verses like my mantra to calm my nerves my emotions my thoughts. It’s overflowing, overwhelming, eating my soul away..
Am I gonna let this affect me like how it affected me last year?
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In surge of my thoughts and emotions, I made a decision which has included so much emotions
in it. I BOOKED MY TICKETS TO JAPAN ALONE! Finally fulfilling another part of my lil’ dream to go on a solo trip, after being in my comfortably-protected-crib for 22years of my life.
This could be one of the grateful thing I should thank god for, to be able to sustain myself and yet have a getaway from where I belonged.
It did not started off as a pure solo trip, it was supposedly to be a trip with one of my close friend however it did not work out so I was desperately in search of finding someone to go on a impromptu trip in a way.
When my face were covered with spots, those are like the worst days of my life. My days seem so bleak and never ending, it lasted for months. When I said m o n t h s, I mean literally.
This is when it all changed, there’s a glimpse of light that came from no where shown on me. A gentle voice saying, “You look beautiful.” All of a sudden I felt that tinge of warmth & love in it. Grateful & I knew I doesn’t deserve it.